Each Wednesday night, anywhere from 7-10 young ladies pile in my little living room, eager to study the word of God. I never saw it in my stars to lead a small group of middle and high school aged girls, but The Lord had plans that I never imagined. Over the last year, my heart has been knitted with theirs and I like to think of myself as their cool big sister…because heaven knows I am not old enough to be a mom. Ok, ok... so maybe I am. Yikes!
You parents out there will understand what I mean by the term “learn from my mistakes”. Although I have no biological children, I can still pass this on to my “spiritual children”. When I was their age, making bad choices was my hobby. It’s what I was good at. And trust me when I say I was no amateur. You could follow me around and you’re bound to see the majority of decisions I made on a daily basis at that age end up in disaster. Why? Because I made decisions based on what Katy wanted. It was all about me.
Ok, now back to small group. One of the things I remind the girls of no less than four times on a given Wednesday is that the choices they make now matter. I am pretty sure I thought my teenage years were mulligan years and that they didn’t count. But as I have grown, I see that every single choice we make echoes into eternity. I want these precious girls to learn from the mistakes I made when I was their age.
I have a prayer that I pray each day that helps focus my heart on the One who deserves all of my attention. It focuses on today, and reminds me that life is a gift…one to be received one day at a time. It’s simple, but it’s life-altering and life-giving.
“Lord, I give you my “yes” today.”
See, I told you! Simple! But it changes the very core of who I am.
No matter what you ask Lord, you have my “yes today”.
I cannot help but think of the students who gave their very last “yes” to Jesus when Christopher Harper Mercer walked into Umpqua Community College with one question in mind: “are you a Christian?” It stopped me in my tracks to read that in the headlines. These faithful-until-death-souls gave Jesus their ultimate and final "yes". And in an unfortunate act of violence…within minutes…saw the Lord. Wow. So, I put myself in that situation… you see, it’s easy to give the Lord my “yes today” when everything seems ok. But what about when I am standing in the very face of persecution?
It is my prayer that when those days come, even if it means it's my last, that I will say…”Lord, I give you my yes….EVEN today”.